I had work later today and it still felt like I didn’t get enough sleep.

However, I was able to get my big monthly invoice project out of the way and had the chance to teach a coworker how to use the new system I implemented at work. My 3rd grade teacher also told me that she would selfishly love to have me there for the rest of the year, which technically is only four months away, but also encouraged me to do what makes me happy. So it was nice to feel important and vital to the team.

Especially since I had a horrible Monday waking up to a rejection email from an interview that went well last week. Fortunately, the department I met with felt that I was a good fit for the organization and offered to help me turn in paperwork to the hiring managers of the legal department. But I was feeling too down yesterday to really get to work on anything..

Today I met with my friend Gordon for an impromptu snack and coffee (chai lattes) before my Toastmaster’s meeting. I vented to him about the difficulties of finding a job and how I keep failing at the last minute. He told me to get hungry, and to really want something and show it in an interview. At the coffee shop, the man sitting next to us gave words of encouragement as well when he overheard my job search struggles. He told me to stay myself, and stay the passionate person I was.

To stay present.

This night was just what I needed. Although not completely, I do feel invigorated to work a bit. It helped that my Toastmaster’s meeting went well and was inspiring because I was around other individuals who were focused on personal and professional development. I signed up for a speech and I’ve been thinking about it nonstop since. There’s too much, but also not enough to speak about - I will leave that for next time.

I somehow made it to the gym at a late 10pm, and finished my planned workout by 11pm. That in itself made me feel really good about today. I’m reminding myself to be grateful for what I do have, instead of what I don’t. It’s 12:36am as I write this and the list of things I want to do is running through my thoughts. I still need to clean my room, meditate, study for the LSAT, find a law-related class/program, find a Japanese conversation group, study for N2, watch the documentary Cheska sent…the list goes on.

I oftentimes wonder what I could accomplish if there were more hours in a day.

But then I remember that I absolutely love my bed and my eyes quickly welcome sleep.

Goodnight, world.