…that could completely describe what I was trying to say.

Maybe today I had a bad day or maybe I am just stressed out and tired, but I would just like to say that if I was comfortable staying where I was with the same whatever everyday I would consider myself a scrub. A downright useless, human being.

It really pains me to see people going nowhere in life. 

People that aren’t even trying to follow their dreams or breakout from their comfort zone. Of course, it’s their life to live and their decision to stay in the same place with the same people and the same events everyday. So I probably shouldn’t say anything about it and let them do what they will. I should focus on my own life.

It’s just hard when I see you so comfortably happy doing absolutely nothing. 

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On a tangent, I hate the rain. Today was a terrible day because:

1. My boo is being a pain in the butt because he doesn’t know how to establish connections and is constantly complaining about his life without doing anything to change it
2. I haven’t finished my environmental modeling problem set yet
3. I apparently suck at writing scientific literature reviews and now have to make an absolutely fabulous research proposal
4. I have an art history midterm on Friday - a subject I have absolutely no interest in
5. Two people in my figure drawing class had impressive midterm projects this past Monday 
6. I fell asleep marking pictures in the book I had to study and lost 3 hours of work time
7. I’m having a hard time following the rules I made for lent (my ate wanted me to do it, although I’m not catholic)
8. I can’t go to thirsty Thursday’s this week 
9. I hate the rain

It gets old when I have to keep telling myself that it’s worth it, that I’m in a better place than most.

Le sigh, let’s do this shit.