I’m not quite sure what’s going on my head recently..

But I’m definitely destructive. Been kinda bummed and depressed for some reason and I can’t really blame it on just the alcohol. I really need to stop drinking, I hate being dependent and weak more than anything. Running around getting fucked up isn’t going to get me anywhere. I don’t want to be a cracked out whore. I need to go to school even though I hate it to death at the moment. 

It’s not about this, it’s not about that.

I keep trying to blame other people and other situations, but it’s really just me. I can’t blame him or her or him. It’s my fault. I think I’m at that point in my life where I just feel ridiculously insecure. Not sure why. Just everything about me is pissing me off. This is my time to figure myself out right? Well, I’m getting irritated. And nights are super hard.

I hate being me right now and I hate not knowing exactly why. 

Ugh, why am I so crazy?