I’m getting really horrible with posting..
No wonder why my emotions and thoughts are getting crammed up and overbearing.
I have been so stressed out and anal lately, I just keep getting angry. But that might be because I do not like to eat onions, which are supposed to make you less angry. With championships, parties, and the end of applications coming up, it is becoming increasingly difficult to find time for myself to just sit and evaluate my goals.

Anyways, I found out a lot of things about my little flower. I hate to admit it, but I’ve been overlooking and unappreciating. Even though I maybe angry and unhappy, it is much worse not having that person near with me. There are just some things and some people in life that cannot be replaced, no matter how much you lie to yourself thinking they can. Kind of opposite to Beyonce’s Irreplaceable. So as of now, there are three people that are irreplaceable to me, ten people that I would absolutely hate to lose, and a million people I would prefer staying friendly with, but my life would not change without them.

Sometimes when I prioritize my life, I am shocked to find out who is at the top, and who is not. Maybe it’s just me, but boyfriends, girlfriends, and itfriends do not usually come first. While friends leave footsteps and even kisses in the heart, whatever-friends just occupy a part of your life that could easily be forgotten. Maybe I have not found that person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Maybe I have not loved yet. Maybe I never will. Because I have already given all of my love to those three people, I have none left for the rest of the world. There are those people that change and define your life. The others are just witnesses to your story.

I feel like I am finally growing up and starting to understand myself.

My story is just beginning.
It is still unwritten.


But, I better get married :)