thanks.

give thanks, to those who matter to you.

give love, to those who deserve it from you.

give life, to those who make use of it.

give heart, to those who ask for it.

give thanks.

I have to say, food was really good tonight; I missed my aunt’s house. Though I have not been there for months, it was as if I had gone every weekend like I did all those years before my life got hectic. They accepted me and they missed me. It was a nice feeling to have, even though we’re technically not family. It’s a bit less and less crowded before, but of course, people move on, get busy, have lives. I must say though, I can not wait for Black Friday. A whole day of solely shopping and eating? Delicious. I have been on edge lately, with school and family issues. But I finally get a day where I can just live in tradition and remember the past.

It sucks a little because I don’t think many of us are moving forward. We are stuck in this past and we have not made an effort to take that first breath of independence. How come so many of my friends refuse to make new ones? How come so many are stuck with the comrades they were glued to in high school? Maybe it’s insecurity, lack of confidence, or even comfort in control, but I think that college is a place to expand horizons and make use of all the resources. How can you do that if you are constantly harping about the past and the relationships then?

You only keep a few friends from high school. The ones that really count, right?

How do I know which ones they are?

I think I am making bad decisions.