This guy really does have amazing things.
To think he was on the way to becoming an electrical engineer is beyond me; He took his dream big, above all else, and is happier than he ever imagined. Not many people can say they do what they want. In fact, only a handful of people on this entire planet could probably say that with complete confidence. The risk of falling always ends up holding our dreams back. Maybe its the fear of being poor, jobless, or alone.
But, what is life without happiness?
I tell myself often what it is I need to do in the next couple of days, weeks, even years. I add tasks to my google to-do list faster than I can check them off. I planned my college, my wedding, my children. I keep forgetting to take a breath and actually enjoy the things I plan so meticulously to do. I forget to do what I love.
I realized it this morning. I had to drop my parents off for an early flight so I left the house at dusk, driving in the minutes between night and day. As I crossed the bridge to meet my best friend for breakfast before I took my own flight to the islands, I was suddenly bordering time. The full moon on my right in the darkness of the night, the rising sun and blue sky on my left.
But the sun rising and the moon disappearing are not sudden events - they happen gradually. As many times as I’ve driven across this bridge in the wee hours of the morning, this was the first time I noticed how quickly the sky could change colors. I always drive looking three cars ahead, but the one car I really need to pay attention to is right in front. By constantly looking ahead in the future, I fail to notice the things that happen in the present, I fail to do the things that make me happy, now.
I don’t want my life to be about the next chapter anymore. I want everyday to be about this section, this moment of my life I can’t have back. I don’t want to have to worry about GREs and MCATs when I should be enjoying my paradise vacation. I want to let my resume sit on my dusty desk while I soak up the sun and take as many pictures as my pointer finger will allow.
I don’t want to see and experience the world after I retire.
I want to live, now.
on a side note…
Aren’t these shirts ridiculously cute? I just pre-ordered a pair for my two-year anniversary. And if you knew me at all, it’s no surprise I picked a cheesy day like Valentine’s Day to share with my boyfriend. Too bad it’ll have to be a skype date :’(