2019 was tough on many fronts - I was in a new city that is only a fraction as chill as the one I left 🤙🏽, with an even smaller fraction of the nature I needed 🍃, stuck in a living situation that was extremely difficult and exhausting 🙃, trying to survive a full time graduate school schedule, an internship and two jobs. And doing it all 3000 miles away from my family, my dogs and much of my chosen family. 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦

There were so many nights I couldn’t sleep and moments where I didn’t feel safe in a city as cold as New York. ❄️ I think I cried at least once every week (without watching dog 🐶 movies). 

They say if you make it here, you can make it anywhere.

I think I understand that a little better now. If you can somehow pull yourself up through all the bullshit and through all the harsh realities of humanity, ego and hustle culture pulsating through the concrete streets of New York... 🙉 and come out the other side with your character and values intact — you can handle anything. I’ve felt myself break and rebuild so many times over, I no longer fear the unknown, the illogical, the unreasonable 🙄, change. 

I no longer fear myself. It doesn’t scare me anymore, coming face to face with my shortcomings. Leaning into my strengths. And choosing the right people to share it all with. 💎

I do very much believe that life gives you challenges to teach you something, to nurture your growth. 🌱 Life also gives you the moments that last forever, to remind you how fucking awesome it is to be alive. 📸

Women’s March. Hunter Mountain. Galentine’s @sojospa. Killington. @thomcharlton coming to BRPK. Puerto Rico. NYCece & Dede. Burlington. Lawrence’s Med School Graduation! Governor’s Ball. Flora & Dave in LA. Tamer Fellowship. Hadestown with Cheska. P2L Summer SOULstice. Beetlejuice with Cheska. July 4th in NYC. French Riviera. London. Jovconos. Chicago to see Brandon. Home. COSMOS Summit! Columbia School of Social Work PAC Orientation Leader. Jerm wakes tf up. Moving into 2W with my partner in crime. Cash Cab. Celebrating 28 as Beetlejuice, Scorpio Szn Shindig. Kim moves to NYC. Day-n-Vegas. Ying and Kusama. Friendsgivings & Friendsmases. SoulCycle Instructor Audition. Washington DCece. English Christmas with the Priors. 

Future-mommy-in-training with my little Mengs 👧🏻👶🏻👦🏻 Cooking 34/52 👩🏼‍🍳 Reading 15 👩🏼‍🏫 Documentaries 13 👩🏼‍💻 SoulCycle 130 💛

Balance 🤸🏻‍♀️

2019 has taught me to set boundaries, to forgive, to let go of expectations and resentment, and to trust in your diamonds. To trust in the universe. 🙏🏼

Good things will come, they always do. 🌟

Looking to be more spiritual, intentional and  liberated in 2020. 

2020, I manifest..

Clarity.