01.18.2016 - Growing Pains

Basically had my first legal case today. 

While it was extremely difficult for the most part, I found it to be enlightening and inspiring as well. It was probably the first time that I was able to stand toe to toe with traditional, stubborn, Asian parents, yet was able to still be heard. I got to fight and debate for my friend’s well-being and livelihood and it cemented my decision to take the LSAT this year and really put my all into learning more about political science and about the legal field. 

We’re at the point in our lives where we realize that parents are not perfect beings. They are flawed, human. We are realizing where we ourselves stand on issues, our morals, and our beliefs. We’re discovering ourselves as people while struggling to spread our wings and fly from the mother nest. Sometimes, that means having to fight off our parents who want to clip our wings. Other times, it means coming to terms with immovable conflicting ideals and making the best of compromises. 

Parents have raised us, and for that, we are forever grateful.

But at the same time, they are not perfect and do not always know what is best for us or what is at the end of the road we will walk down. They do not have control over our lives and cannot tell us which direction we should walk. They can, however, give us advice and push us in the right direction. We can choose to follow, forge our own paths, or crash and burn, growing all the same. 

We’re all at that strange age where we have no idea what we are doing or where we are going. Figuring who we are and what we believe in while struggling to face reality and disillusionment. It’s the time to try new things and to take chances. It’s time to prepare for what is to come and to search for ourselves. It’s a time to decide on how the rest of our lives will go. Possibility. Rejection. Potential. Failure. Expectation. Reality. Hope. Change. 

Growth. 

That in itself, is so inspiring to me I don’t know if I will be able to sleep tonight. I want to be a good person. I want to be better. I want to do good, always. 

I want to fight for what I believe in.