I’m disappointed in myself.
I realized that today when I finally figured out what direction I wanted to go in life. Teach for America, JET in Japan, graduate school for an MBA in Environmental/International Business, EPA, the United Nations, politics. I can’t achieve those things without blood, sweat, and tears.
I’ve been slacking a lot lately, both in school and professionally. On the plane to Vegas today, I was planning what I wanted to accomplish in the next few years and I realized that this spring semester at Berkeley is probably the last time I could really accomplish anything significant in college. Yet, I haven’t put all my time towards my senior thesis or even shown up to all of my classes and for that, I’m ashamed. These last few months were literally the only thing I had to focus on, but I decided to prioritize playing hard and living an over-the-top lifestyle instead. I mean, I’m realizing this while already on board a flight to sin city.. Ironic, right? I really need to get my act together, no more dilly-dallying. I will stay up as late as I need to in order to get my thesis finished (and I want it to be written well). I want to attend all the classes that I can and stop turning assignments in late. And seriously, do I really need to drink five days a week? If I had time for that, I should have been at the gym.
I travel a lot, but usually it’s with the mentality that I’ve worked for it. If I don’t get my act together, my Europe backpacking trip this summer wouldn’t be worth it. I would have done nothing to deserve it.
You need to work to get where you want to go.
No more slacking.