homecoming.

Homecoming!

So though I am writing this the sunday after I will make it the saturday post. I made a lot of memories, and I got to know someone that I thought would always just be a simple friend. Not a best friend, not a buddy, not family, just a friend. But after last night I realized he can really be someone I want to get close to (like friend-wise of course). And I guess it helps that I had a crazy fun time with him as my date :)

Crss-Country CCS! was dissappointing, but compared to my epic failure last year, I am much more satisfied with my last race of high school. After four years of tears, sweat, and blood, I am glad I got to spend my final day as a senior runner at Toro Park, Salinas. Honestly, I was a little angry at the beginning of the race, because my teammates left us out of their car and left us with the loud ass freshmen (who did not really let me sleep). I even left them for warmup adn drills. Wow. I really need to grow up some more. (I’m trying though) But though I complain about doing worse because of their off tune singing, it actually did not really change anything. There are no excuses when you step on the line. Whether it be a cold, a sprained ankle, or even a missing shoe you have to get to that finish chute as fast as you can. There is no “groin injury” or “bronchitis” there is just the course, you, your strength, and your heart. If you really wanted it, you could die for it. I do not know if I was that extreme, but I was ready to accept the consequences of running that race. Even if my stupid leg had broken, I wanted to step into that faraway chute. It still sucks that all the friends I have made these four years are totally fast, but I have the rest of my life to prove to myself and to the world what I can do. Nothing stops here, especially if I do not want it to. I will definitely miss this team that I can call my family. Especially when my own is a poor excuse for one.

I do not want Audrey on my team. And William can shut up. It IS my fucking team. My effing family, my friends, my life. That track is my world, and I do not want her stuck up, pussy ass, demented legs on it. I will not let Audrey deteriorate it. I will break her before she corrupts it. In this, I know I will not grow up. I have matured, but just for this one thing, I will be a child for. And I do not care how messed up I am. For my world, I will do anything.

But, I have not really even talked about Homecoming yet.


I went to Yumi after we got back and I chilled with Mack. He had me run to McDonald’s to get change, and because I was a girl I was totally able to get all of it from the people at McDonald’s without buying anything. So we talked for a bit, and I got another free ice cream (: Then Nikki came over, we got ready for two hours, and she left for cameron’s house. I went to drop off dede at school, and then to Mack’s. It was pretty funny when he got into the driver’s seat because I usually drive close to the wheel and he was a lot taller. We picked up alex, then went to adrie’s house (FUCKING WEIRD) and picked up trisha. Honestly, trisha is a bit annoying because she acts like she is all innocent and super sweet. I said cammi and adrie kind of hate each other and she starts whining to me, “ Noooo. Don’t say that… I don’t like it when people doo thatt.” Wtf? You don’t even know the story girl! But she was still cute in her dress, just annoying. Then we ate at zen bistro, which was a pretty cool place and Julia Lee was our server. Mack whispered “She lost hella weight” and I cracked up at that. So I guess Zen Bistro was a japanese place because we had sushi, but it was really good. We also got..“Better than sex”. Ahahah What the fuck right? It was like spicy sashimi stuff, and I tried it. I still do not like sashimi. The line for Homecoming was CRAZY long. WOW, it took us like forty minutes just to get in the door. Then the boys’ pockets were checked. Stupid Mack forgot his lighter and had to hide it.. somewhere? Pictures took another half an hour at least, but I’m pretty happy with my pictures (I think?) Cammi was freaking hella hot, and I got pissed a little. But only for like a few minutes. I was pretty jealous of Ronald for having such a hot date (that was kind of supposed to be MY hot date) Mack is pretty cute :) He is officially cool enough to be my buddy. Dancing was FUNN! I did not think I would have been staying with Mack all night though, so that was a little weird. When we started dancing he even asked if it was awkward. Like what? That would just make it more awkward and I thought about backing out for a split second. Jeezus, guys are idiots. AND DEDE FUCKING SAW ME. He will not shut up about my dirty dancing, but it was worth it. Hella fun. Ahhhhh!! I better not fall in love with clubs. And Mack Siu. Ahaha just kidding. I think? Alex was a freaking good dancer, so he got brownie points for that. Ahaha good dancers = hot. We went to In-N-Out after and then to Michael Chiu’s house after dropping off Alex. Then.. I went over Mack’s house. His dad was still awake, but I have not seen him in a while so we talked a bit. Pretty cool parents. I remember wehn I used to go over all the time during spring break last year. I miss Jun and Emi :( We talked for like.. EVER. We talked about everything! And I learned alot of things. About him and about me. I went home around 2AM, but my dad did not really say anything, so that was cool. He finally knows I am not a party girl and am growing up :) Until Dede tells him I do not care what I do with Cammi on the dance floor…

And after all that, is the end to my saturday.

After talking, I want to believe that no matter what happens I will end up with the person I am supposed to be with. I will end up with the person that I love the most, and should be with. I want to change the way I do things. I only want to go out with people I really like a lot - not just want to try dating. And I guess it does not really matter if he/she is white or asian or whatever. I want to find this love :) because I know I have not found it yet. And I learned that I really hate it when people talk about getting married… I have the rest of my life to live; I am not getting tied down. When college rolls around, I am sure that I would want to try and find that person to settle down with, that person to love.

By the way, Mack is crazy charming. Like what the hell! Do not make me fall in love with you! I really need to be more picky and critical. I want to date everybody! Girls and guys alike. Friends and people I do not even know alike. I want to go to college!