From my travels, I needed this today. I needed to remember what I wrote after watching this movie.
August 8th, 2018
Me Before You.
To choose death in order to let your love fly free, is the most unselfish thing I can think of.
If you love them, let them go.
If you really loved someone, you wouldn’t stand in their way. Whether it’s Me Before You or Every Day. The themes are the same. To let go of love even if it’s what you both want because it would make them happier without you, and maybe that in itself is the highest form of love. Unconditional love.
And maybe that’s what Kevin gave to me.
He knew he wanted something different and couldn’t give me what I needed. Couldn’t have made me a better person. Knew I was destined for more. He said that before, that I would be President. That he finds it amazing what I do. And he’s looking for the same thing for himself. A love like that, is something of a different caliber.
Because it’s naive to think that. To think that “I can do it, I can change for you.” I can give these things up for you when you know that deep down you can’t. Love isn’t the fairy tale that Hollywood sells you. Love isn’t enough to make it all work out. There are compromises and things you give up and sometimes people just don’t want to give up those things. The ones that understand that first are also usually the ones to reason it out. In the same way that I knew Mack and me wouldn’t see eye to eye in a future, Kevin saw that in us. He spent the time and really took the time to figure that out. To realize when was a good time to set me free.
He’s ahead of me in that respect. The acceptance and letting go. Understanding what we both wanted and needed.
“I feel like I held you back.”
Letting me be free. That was the biggest gift he could’ve given me.
Freedom from a relationship that would’ve hurt and caused me pain for the rest of my life.
If we’re supposed to find each other again, we will. But in the meantime, I will find and forge my own path.