12.12.2015 - Fear of Missing Out

I had a very chill Saturday, but it was necessary and nice.

Spent most of today recovering from the holiday party last night and it was pretty glorious. We got brunch at a local restaurant and took a cat nap afterwards. I finally had time to do work and even got around to applying to this UN position I had been keeping on my to-do list for a while.

I’m the kind of person that hates missing events and wants to be everywhere all the time, so I pack my schedule and go to everything. Sometimes, that means my day will start at 6am and end at 11pm. I don’t sleep much on weekends and go hard Thursday’s, Friday’s, and Saturday’s some weeks.

I have FOMO, hardcore.

But today made me realize that relaxed days are also very necessary. Time to catch up with friends, sleep, get work done, and just simply connecting back with yourself without substances is cathartic in itself. I need to remind myself to have more of these days in my schedule. Personal development isn’t always about constant aggressive action - sometimes taking a step back is the best course to take.

I also have to remember that quality trumps quantity, so I want to spend more time with people I have met in my life that matter and worry less about keeping up with all my friends. I only need a few that really care about me that I also really care about. I don’t need to attend all these events for acquaintances or “friends” that wouldn’t know if I even attended or not.

And I have to remember that where my actual friends come from, what they look like, and what it says about me doesn’t matter. None of that stuff matters to my happiness. It should just be all love, and love only. There isn’t a place for judgement or reputation.

But that’s something else I need to work on and a story for another time.

12.10.2015 - Missed

I missed writing yesterday because of a holiday party for JETAANC.

I’ve been sleep deprived lately so keeping up with my good morning habits has been difficult. I still try to read the news and meditate at least everyday. But the exercise and writing has definitely fallen off.

I read an article about reverse racism the other day. Let me just say - it doesn’t exist. When you are at a position of power, you cannot complain about the people below you who express discontent. It’s as if the royal family was throwing fits because the starving, poor peasants in his kingdom were complaining.

I could talk for days about race and our systems.

I need to go to Capitol Hill.

12.09.2015

I am grateful for my home, my family, my dogs, my bed. Coming home to sleep at night is the best feeling in the world.

Something I realized from finally learning to stand on my own and think on my own.

I know who I am and what I love.
I thank the world everyday.

If You Build Affordable Housing For Teachers, Will They Come? →

There’s a teacher shortage across America, especially for math teachers and especially in California.

Why is it that a profession which requires a credential and at times a master degree, is belittled so regularly by our country and its systems?

theanti90smovement:

a 2 second google search and i found the fucking difference 

Important. Read up, those of you who believe in reverse racism. There ain’t no such thing when you’re from a position of power and privilege. You can’t complain about being criticized for being at the top in a society that remains unchanged and detrimental to the ethnic groups at the bottom.

For those who don't know...

astrologyfrog:

idk some people might not know this stuff. Sorry it’s kinda out of order.

Ascendant is how you act in new situations.

Moon is your emotional personality.

Sun is your fundamental qualities.

Jupiter is what you value.

Pluto is your inner drive.

Neptune is your idealism.

Mercury is how you communicate.

Saturn is your work ethic.

Venus is your romantic inclinations.

Mars is how you take action.

Uranus is your freedom needs.

12.08.2015 - Sleep

I don’t have much to write about today.

I did a table topic at my Toastmaster’s meeting, and it was “Has technology caused us to lose skills?”

I talked about what I witness in my third grade class at school. Even though kids are learning new skills like typing, Photoshop, google classroom, and even coding - they are losing the basic mastery of writing, reading, and speaking since our school is pushing for digital work. They’re losing their motor skills and their writing especially suffers from so much technology use.

But that’s a conversation for another day.

Goodnight.